The Agony!!!

I feel so awful! I just made an appointment to have my cat declawed. I don't want to have him declawed, but I don't really have a choice. John says that I have to choose between his claws or his life. When I look at it that way it's really not a hard choice at all. I don't want to kill my cat, or give him away. I will gladly get rid of his claws to keep him, I just feel so cruel. It's really not a nice procedure for a poor little kitty. I hope he doesn't hate me after it!
I know it makes sense in so many ways for us to have this done, and we probably should have even done it sooner (like before he scratched our leather couches and wrecked our carpet). It will save us money in the long run, he'll get over it, and he won't be able to scratch the baby.
I just had to vent. My poor little Tum-Tum.